Saturday, August 26, 2006

I'VE LEARNED TO BE GRATEFUL

A fter having everything taken from me, I've learned to appreciate things when I do get them. All my wordly things were either given away or trashed when I went to prison. I came out with nothing and even the clothes on my back had to be donated. I worked very hard to simply replace even the little things. You cannot imagine what it is to start over completely. I didn't even own but a plastic spoon and cup.

For the first time in 6 years, I finally was able to get new glasses. I couldn't hardly see. Now, that I have these new glasses, I can really realize what a small miracle it was for my other glasses to have lasted 6 years. I wear glasses all the time and can't make out images unless I have them on. I prayed regularly for my glasses to last till I could get new ones. God actually kept them intact through all these years.
Thank you Lord, for all these things. Amen!

4 comments:

shane said...

isn't it interesting when you find out things about people that you can relate to :-) i read two of your blogs regularly but only [usually] comment here. i have found that your sense of humour is a real treasure that i look forward to. my little bit of humility came after i had to give ALL my posessions to the church and was [thru circumstances beyond my immediate control] left with nothing. i too, am starting again. at 49 that is a challenge. i think i have a few gifts given me to allow me to cope with life. my sense of humour, my emerging talent in writing. I can play and teach guitar. so i have finally realised that i am not completely without resources. i don't think you are either. you're too bright.

Babsbitchin said...

Shane, I do believe you understand. If anybody does, you do. I can remember when I first met you and the hard times you were going through. It was often hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes, I'm too busy in my own garbage to witness the little miracles in my life and even in yours. It takes a trained eye to see the small ones for what they are. And it certainly takes humility to begin to appreciate going from rags to riches. No, I'm not rich by any means but I've come so far as to be rich. I can see that in you.
"An untrained, undisciplined child is an orphan." We are not without a Father are we? I often have to put my suffering into perspective because I do question it from time to time, as I'm sure you have. I'm reminded that it's all for a divine purpose. I was so envious of people and their uncluttered, unchaotic lives. But they are not in the special training program that we are in. Somehow, I take comfort in knowing that I am being educated, sometimes the hard way, but by our Father, who has special plans for me. It comforts me to know that. I also feel I've learned things and was exposed to recognize Satan and his works. People walk around quite oblivious to his trappings. America in general is and has been taken hostage and they don't even know it. Yes, I often have a foot in both worlds but I have an advantage as I'm able to see more clearly, everyday, just how strong a hold he has on people. Once you begin to know him, you recognize all this and it becomes plain as day. Call me the Militia or a Merc cause I have a plan to point this out to as many people as possible. I'll gain their trust as an understanding person who's not preaching at them and then I go in for the pitch. I drop it in their laps and say look at that, hmmmm? Most people are either run off or really see. This is my mission. What's yours my Dear Shane?

shane said...

in this lies the rub. i believe, but it is all faith. i no longer know what it is i am here for. i have started again. including losing my wife. i lost it all. i used to know what i wanted. now i am trying to figure out what the Lord wants. i think i am too thick to figure it out. LOL, i can't even find a church that i feel comfortable in. i do recognise that my life is superior to many. nz is an amazingly peaceful [comparatively] place to live. though it seems we are trying to get worse. i have family. but in the midst of all this crowd, it is still lonely. all i can do [i am trying] is keep trying to keep the faith. i try [not too well] to live by the Lord's rules.

Babsbitchin said...

Shane, it's so hard, isn't it? From one day to the next, I am on my toes trying to stay ahead. But I have to be aware that when I let my guard down and not read the word and ingest it, that's when I fall prey. I must pray not to fall prey to his trappings. Sometimes, it would sure be easier to not live the life I lead, it can be lonely. But I choose this and I will continue to fight if nothing else, for my own life. Satan wants me so bad cause I was real good at being bad, real good. I have to be ahead of the game. I have to be on my toes and I have to stay in the Word. That is my downfall. I say to myself, oh, I've read that and don't want to read it like a child. but then I give in, read it and glean something, a meaning, all of it's own accord. It's never the same. As I grow in the Spirit, so does my absorbtion and understanding. Pray for wisdom, Shane and we'll agree that God will be that light that guides you. Sssssssssssh listen!