Saturday, December 31, 2005

I am so grateful to have been able to visit with my parents over the holidays. We've not always been able to see eye to eye but through the years we've both mellowed, I've matured and I am now able to appreciate what my parents were trying to teach me. It was an answer to a prayer on my part that enabled the scales to fall from my eyes. I prayed for wisdom and understanding and Yeshua heard me. If you constantly seek the truth, diligently, you will find it. http://mim.net/ What are you grateful for?



Sunday, December 18, 2005

CHRISTMAS...WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO ME!?

WHAT IS THIS HOLIDAY? I KNOW WHEN I WAS A CHILD ALL I UNDERSTOOD WAS SOME FAT GUY, SANTA CLAUS, WAS SUPPOSED TO SLIDE DOWN MY CHIMNEY, A MIRACLE IN ITSELF, AND BRING ME PRESENTS. THEN, I LEARNED ABOUT THE REAL MIRACLE BABY JESUS AND THE WHOLE STORY. I AM ONLY NOW GETTING PART OF THE REAL MEANING BEHIND CHRISTMAS. AND AT THE AGE OF 46, I AM NOW ALSO AWARE OF WHAT IT SHOULDN'T BE TOO. IT SHOULDN'T BE A TIME YOU GO INTO TERRIBLE DEBT TO PROVIDE VISIONS OF WORLDLY GOODNESS AS THERE IS NO SUCH THING. IT SHOULDN'T BE A TIME THAT YOU STRESS BECAUSE YOU CAN'T SPEND ALOT OF MONEY TO BUY YOUR CHILDREN ALL THE THINGS THEY WANT AND THEY WILL ALWAYS WANT MORE THAN THEY SHOULD HAVE . IT SHOULDN'T BE A TIME TO KEEP UP WITH THE JONES' OR SMITH'S OR FELDSTEINS EVEN OR PUT UP THE BEST LIGHTS IN THE NEIGHBORHOOD, ALTHOUGH I DO ENJOY THEM. IT SHOULDN'T BE A TIME OF SUICIDE AND LONELINESS, HUNGER, PAIN OR ABANDONMENT. IT SHOULDN'T BE ABOUT PROJECTED SALES AND STEALING MONEY FROM PEOPLE IN THE NAME OF CHRISTMAS.
WHAT IT SHOULD BE IS A TIME TO CELEBRATE LOVE AND FAMILY, FORGIVENESS AND UNDERSTANDING. WHAT IS SHOULD BE IS A TIME TO INVEST IN YOUR CHILDREN'S LIVES BY TEACHING THEM TO BE GRATEFUL NOT SELFISH AND WORLDLY. IT SHOULD BE A TIME TO REACH OUT TO EVEN ONE PERSON, YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW AND SAY,"I CARE," AND REALLY MEAN IT. LOVE AND CHARITY ARE ONE AND THE SAME AND THIS IS WHAT CHRISTMAS REALLY MEANS, TO GIVE FREELY FROM THE HEART YOUR LOVE, TIME AND ATTENTION. IT SHOULD NOT MEAN YOUR WALLET, MONEY AND CREDIT CARDS. I AM SO THANKFUL THAT I WOKE UP AND SAW THIS BEFORE I DIE AND LEARNED THE TRUE MEANING OF CHRISTMAS AND LIFE FOR THAT MATTER: LOVE, FAMILY AND LAUGHTER. WHAT ARE YOU GRATEFUL FOR??

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

BLESS THIS CHILD


Friday, December 09, 2005

Bless this child who's beaten daily,much more than he can take
Bless this child who cries at night,his hunger still awake.
Bless this child who's born of drugs,no habit of his own,
Bless this child who screams in silence he bears his pain alone.
Bless this child not wanted still,a lonely path to lead,
Bless this child so young,too young,molested, made to bleed.
Bless this child born of pain,whose mother barely cares,
Bless this child afraid of dark,it only brings nightmares.
Bless this child too frail to eat,afraid to die just yet,
Bless this child disease will claim,his dreams are never met.
Bless this child who wants to die,his life seems only lies,
Bless this child through suicide can't say his last good-byes.
Bless this child who's father's gone,his love poured out in vain,
Bless this child through poverty who'll only know hate and pain.
Bless this child who's shook in anger, now knocks at heaven's gate,
Bless this child you'll never know,his story told too late.
Bless this child who's sent to you,a present from above,
Bless this child you call your own,make sure you show them love.
Barbara Jean Moore

Friday, December 09, 2005

IT'S NOT A MISTAKE ANYMORE!!

Psalm 19:12-14


Well folks, they handed down the verdict...I'm a sinner. Each and every day I stand a real good chance of sinning and,"the wages of sin is death."

What can I do? Is there any point in trying? I believe that there is. Why? because Christ Yeshua died on that cross for me and MY sin. Now, knowing this does not give me a license to sin. No, in fact it holds me accountable.

Each and every day and every single night I go to my heavenly Father and ask him once again to wipe the slate clean.
But you can't go to him with lip service because he knows your heart, he knows your sincerity.

We all make mistakes, we all sin but the secret is to try harder to be more like Christ; to treat others as we want to be treated, to forgive as we would want to forgive, to judge as we would want to be judged and have charity for our fellow man. Now, charity and love are one and the same, if you have you should give and always try to see others through God's eyes.


I am three people;

I am who you think I am,


I am who I think I am,


I am who GOD knows I am.


Now, this is pretty basic stuff most of us learned in Sunday school. But how easy we forget these simple rules, how easy we find it to be unforgiving and scornful.
How easy is it to look down your nose at someone else when you know not the root of their reason. And how very easy is it to be selfish. Selfish with our money, time, love, concern, prayers and we find it so easy to be detached and not care.


We don't have time to feel someone else's pain. We don't have time to pray for
that junkie in the street. But we find the time to look down our nose at them. I truly believe with every ounce of my being that if Christ were to walk down the street and see some homeless guy panhandling, I don't think he would yell at him to,"get a job," do you?

Just as well, I don't believe Christ would be hanging out at the Country Club schmoozing and hobnobbing with the rich and talking about his new BMW. Quite frankly, I believe he would be on the streets and in the bars or outside of them trying to help and heal the truly sick, lost souls out there.
Ah, the vastness of the sick and lost and if you were to only open your eyes, you would see them.

I've made so many mistakes and bad choices in my life but I know that God never deserted me through it all. How do I know this? I know because he allowed me to learn from my mistakes. At that point they are no longer mistakes but,

"learning experiences."

Yes, I was humbled when I was arrogant. I was taught empathy when I had none. I was taught to appreciate things when I was stripped of all my worldly possessions. I had to learn all about my false pride and self-will. I had to learn understanding of that which is not known.

I was stripped of my dignity but given a humble blanket to wrap up in. I was given what I needed but not what I wanted in every respect of my life. I was sentenced to death with Hep C but was given a stay of execution. I was taught that you can't
put off getting your affairs in order with Christ Yeshua by waiting till the 11th hour when I almost died at 10:30. But most of all when I had no one,nothing,
nada I was given the greatest gift of all...Faith.

WHAT ARE YOU GRATEFUL FOR?


Thursday, December 01, 2005

MOM & ME


It hasn't always been this good in my life especially when it came to my relationship with my family. But as the years have worn on as well as myself, maturity has rounded things to the highest power. My mother and me. It was a terrible struggle. She was strict and I thought she hated me. I, in return learned to really dislike her. We did more than bump heads, we fought tooth and nail. She was a taskmaster, I was a lazy kid. She believed in all things practice makes perfect, I believed in winging it. We're still different yet so much alike. In so many ways I am now grateful for the discipline she instilled although I took years to allow it to download into my brain. Her strength, I inherited, took me through some of the roughest times a person will ever know. I now believe that all that I went through brought me to this point today, the point where I can say I really love,like and value my Mom and my family. I thank God for the gift of endurance and strength, even when I didn't think I could muster the faith to get through another day. For all this and more I am grateful. WHAT ARE YOU GRATEFUL FOR?

GRATEFUL I WENT TO PRISON?




CAN I FIND A WAY TO BE GRATEFUL THAT I WENT TO PRISON? IT WASN'T EASY AT FIRST BUT I FOUND IT AND EVEN MORE SO IN RETROSPECT. AS I LOOK BACK ON MY STAY IN A STATE CORRECTIONAL FACILITY I SEE SO MUCH BLESSING. PRISON KEPT ME AWAY FROM HEROIN MY FIRST LOVE. PRISON ALLOWED ME TO GET CLOSER TO MY HEAVENLY FATHER. PRISON GAVE ME A BETTER WORK ETHIC. PRISON HELPED ME GET INTERFERON TREATMENT FOR HEP C. PRISON TAUGHT ME JUST HOW REAL EVIL IS BUT JUST HOW GOOD GOD CAN BE TO THOSE WHO LISTEN WHEN HE SPEAKS. AND YOU HAVE TO LISTEN AND NOT BE TUNED OUT BY THE NOISE OF LIFE AND WORLDLY THINGS. PRISON ALLOWED ME TO GET TREATMENT FOR MY VERY SERIOUS MENTAL CONDITIONS. PRISON ALLOWED ME THE MEDICATION TO TREAT MY DISORDERS FOR BATTERED WOMEN'S SYNDROME AND POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER. IT TAUGHT ME HOW TO RELY ON GOD FOR STRENGTH. PRISON FINANCED 6 MONTHS OF INTENSIVE, IN HOUSE BEHAVIORAL MODIFICATOIN IN A TREATMENT SETTING. IT GAVE ME ALL THIS AND MORE. WHAT ARE YOU GRATEFUL FOR?

JUST SO MUCH


I have just so much to be thankful for, I really do.The thing I realized is that I'm not thankful enough sometimes. As I lay in bed last night I was saying a quick prayer for the safety of my children, when it occurred to me that God has graced me with such good fortune when it comes to my children. I often think we take some things for granted and I wanted to simply say that I thank God for my children's health through all these years. My son's, Lee 29, William 26, Waylon 24, have for the most part, been very healthy. I've seen mother's who suffer with a child stricken with cancer or a serious ailment and God has chosen to bless me in this aspect of my life. None of my children have ever been seriously ill. Thank you Lord of Lords, King of Kings for the riches you have bestowed upon me.WHAT ARE YOU GRATEFUL FOR?